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My name's Ayden, from southern California. I'm a pre-pretty much everything transgender androgyne. I tend to like other androgynes, but girls are nice too.


I was born with a sign over my head: Female! Female!

Only recently have I realized it was there, but it's bothered me most of my life. My parents didn't really expect me to act any different than if I were a boy, no, but I was still treated differently. As early as preschool, there's just something different between boys and girls. Who you talk to, the way they talk to you, what they talk to you about...

I was declared a tomboy at a young age. Not too unusual, given my rejection of dresses and mostly male circle of friends, but still irrevocably female. I accepted it because that's what everyone said I was, and I really didn't know of any alternative. After all, who was I, some young kid, to question the sign over my head?

But soon I learned that I could disguise that sign. People would guess my gender, laughing nervously, or look me over when I told them my (female) name. At first, it was confusing beyond all belief. I'd been called a girl my entire life - why didn't these people see that sign?

I came up with my own magic trick: If I talk just a bit deeper, use these words, hold my legs like this, slouch a bit... voila! Just like that, everyone thinks I'm male.

The sign is still there, though. I've painted it blue, but it's still there. One of these days, I'm going to tear it down.

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queerwrites
Feb. 24th, 2009 06:20 am (UTC)
Hi and welcome!
Glad you like.
I like your drabble, simple but significant. And it goes so well with your lovely, lovely icon :)
p01s0n3d
Feb. 24th, 2009 06:29 am (UTC)
I love this description, it's incredibly powerful and something I can appreciate. Well written too. :)
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